There is not much i can come up with about things I’m in general not happy with my Partner. In fact, I would find it much easier to tell you all the things he is doing so great instead as there are so many more. The things he is doing for us, the kids and me. The love he is constant sharing and the effort for a better life together he is bringing on daily basis. I am in deed one of those rare woman with the even more rare ‘perfect boyfriend’.

And as he is so perfect in giving us all the good things there are hardly any moments he is doing his own thing, catching up with his mates and go for a drink. I always try to encourage him there more but he just seemed to be so much better being home after work and spending the time for and with us.

Even so more it is a really strange thing to see him with his mates around. Just ‘hanging’ with the boys and doing all the things the bois doing when the chicks are not around. I can’t help it to just sit back and watch, watch and study these oddly strange side of my partner i so rarely get to see.

It was only yesterday as a friend of him came for a visit. I told him to take him out, go for a beer and do silly things but he was pretty keen on showing him our new apartment and his son and so he suggested a pick up of the buddy and afterwards some time in our home.

45minutes after he left the house to pick him up from the station they where back. Sweet as always but with the reddest eyes…Oh dear, did they really just got stoned in a Park?Good, nothing i am crying for at 3pm on a wednesday afternoon but why not let them feel a bit rebellious.

And so it goes, both of them found a comfy spot in the living room on our new 20 Euro Vintage Couch (yepp sorry as much as i hate ‘vintage’ and all the crap that thrown-out-once-by-one-cause-UGLY comes with it, it is a true stunner couch!). After a while i noticed that there was nothing but silence coming out of the room and on a closer inspection aka getting a tea from the kitchen i spied both of them soaked into there social media world . My partner on the i pad onto updates from sports world and his mate on his i phone whats apping some tinder babe. What a picture.

But who am i to judge and so i went back to the bedroom to get a bit of work done. Next thing i notice after a good time has passed some drum and bass beats bouncing though the walls. As i tourned back to the Livingroom i found the sweet man of mine with headphones on standing on his DJ-pult, blasting some drum and bass and spinning vinyls from the past, telling his mate all about the one that was playing at the time. Where he got it and the memorie it brings with it.

And there he was, my boyfriend in its 15 years old teenage boy version who i could picture so well. We only met in our late twenties and so i never got to know him like this but there I saw it all, how he was back then. And it wasn’t hard to imagined that our son perhaps one day will be standing there use like that. Talking about festivals, chicks and memories to his mates just like daddy does.

Silent i moved back into to the kitchen, took on my role as the grateful wife and smiled along over whats happening out there, the old side of my babe i got to knew. I mixed up some dough and prepared a pancake fest for some upcoming munchies. It is great the way we spend our life together and the role we grew into but here and there we need to break the rule and do something compete silly just because. As long as there is no harm to us or others there is a great space in live for joy and laughter.

May we let the child in us never die.